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August 19th, 2009


01:31 pm - *dances*
Short update, longer to follow.

I HAVE A JOB!!!

Internship during schoolyear ftw!

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July 16th, 2009


05:13 pm - I smiled on the inside
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March 30th, 2009


09:38 am
For those of you curious, I am still alive.

I've been busy as hell the past few months and the end isn't in sight.  Doesn't help I am battling being sick and trying to get an internship somewhere.  That's the brief update, I'll be somewhere in the muck for the next couple weeks.

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January 8th, 2009


11:54 am
For those of you wondering where I disappeared to, the short answer is my hard drive died.  Got back from Grand Prairie and bought a new one and last night my father and I finally got all the drivers working and installed.  So now I am cursing the fact that I have to reinstall everything, but at least I'm back folks. 

I guess I am more upset that my last saving of my documents was in the middle of October.  I wrote so much after that is now gone and I have the hard decision as to whether I want to scrap the originals or try and recreate.  Anywho, thats the short update and I will hopefully post later, Ciao.

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December 8th, 2008


09:14 pm
Words can't describe what is going through my head right now.  Honestly, I'm not sure that even I could tell what I am feeling as of late.  This season is not going to be a fun one.  I always comment that I hate the holidays, but in all honesty it is the only time I get to see the bulk of my family and I am happy to see them.  This time, it just doesn't feel like winter, let alone Christmas.  I am in a sad state of depression of late and I have no idea the source of it.  For those who were recipients last year of cookies, don't expect them this year, odds are they wont be going out, just dont have the time or resources with everything going on down here.  With luck when school starts up I will be a shade of my former self, but even I don't gamble with that.  I know I'll make it through, but this just has the feeling of not going to be a good year whatsoever.

Happy Holidays, for whatever faith you prescribe to.
As for me, I am going to try and stay out of touch most of the following month and a half for my own sake, take care.

See you all on the other side of this.
Ciao..
Current Mood: [mood icon] depressed

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December 3rd, 2008


01:20 pm - ~Fin~
Bitches!

I have now finished will al lbut one thing for this semester.  I have a Microeconomic theory final on the 9th, but until then I have nothing to do.  The last week has been filled with busting my ass on my Admiralty Law exam and paper, which I was proud of the work on both, hopefulyl Fitzhugh sees the same way...

Lets see....recap....

I came back into WoW on the wednesday before thanksgiving.  That day had been fraught with a rush to get my checkbook, pay rent, and rearrange my room in Galveston.  We stored Jennifers stuff that had been sitting at my folks house in the room so it wont be as much a hassle when she moves in come January back to campus.  Next day got up to go to sisters house to finish her prepping for Thanksgiving.  After wine and brandy we left and I played a little more, but got a good chunk of work done.  Friday I got the second movie for Ad Law test, burned it to the laptop and then we got up early on Saturday to drive in for Economics.  Ended with an A in Money and Banking, like that was unexpected heh, and then came back and worked a little more.  Sunday did more work and watch Master and Commander, along with The Grid to finalize the test and send it off.  I somehow contracted Hives again friday, and they are confusing the hell out of me.  They aren't following the path they should but who knows, maybe it is all stress related and will vanish now.

I think that's all for now, time for some R&R before the second round of confusion begins.

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November 24th, 2008


11:23 pm
Turkey Day.  I will Return.

That is all.
Current Mood: [mood icon] geeky

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November 21st, 2008


05:56 pm - This made my day more than you can imagine

Study: Pill as good as chemo for some patients

By Miriam Falco
CNN Medical News Managing Editor

(CNN) -- A cancer treatment that comes in a pill is as effective as the standard chemotherapy for lung patients who had previously been treated for their cancer, according to a study released Thursday.

The intravenous chemotherapy treatment had more severe side effects than the pill in this study.

Results of a large clinical trial were published in the British medical journal The Lancet.

The trial was designed to compare Iressa, a daily pill, to Taxotere, an IV-chemotherapy drug that's administered every three weeks.

This international study included more than 1,400 patients for whom standard chemotherapy had been ineffective.

"Iressa and Taxotere have same survival outcomes," according to Dr. Edward Kim, lead author of the study and assistant professor in M.D. Anderson Cancer Center's Department of Thoracic/Head and Neck Medical Oncology in Houston, Texas.

The study was paid for by the maker of Iressa, AstraZeneca. Kim says the Food and Drug Administration mandated that the pharmaceutical company conduct this clinical trial.

In the study, patients taking Iressa had an average survival of 7.6 months, and 32 percent survived one year, compared with patients getting the chemotherapy drug Taxotere. Their survival was an average of eight months; 34 percent of patients survived one year.

Kim says this is the largest study in lung cancer comparing an oral therapy with chemotherapy.

Dr. Bruce Johnson, a lung cancer specialist at the Dana-Farber Cancer Institute in Boston, Massachusetts, who was not involved in this research, says, "this study did what it intended to do in showing equivalency. I can't imagine any clearer evidence."

One significant difference between the two drugs is in side effects. Patients taking Iressa mainly experienced skin rashes and/or mild diarrhea. Patients on Taxotere had many more severe side effects, including hair loss, numbness in hands and feet, severe diarrhea, a drop in blood cells and nausea.

Given the difference, "the single pill trumps chemotherapy," said Dr. Paul Bunn, who heads the International Association for the Study of Lung Cancer Research and also was not involved in the clinical trial.

Johnson says that 5 to 10 percent of patients taking Taxotere will drop out every three weeks because of side effects. Kim points out that if the two treatments have the same survival benefit but one has fewer side effects and is easier to take, doctors want their patients to have the option for this treatment.

Currently, no new lung cancer patients can get Iressa, because doctors are no longer allowed to prescribe it.

In 2003, Iressa got fast-track FDA approval as a treatment for patients with non-small-cell lung cancer, specifically for patients in whom standard chemotherapy had failed. The approval was based on two small phase II clinical trials that showed Iressa was able to shrink tumors by about 10 percent, which led the FDA to believe that the drug would lead to a "positive effect on survival or benefits."

When the FDA gives a drug accelerated approval, it requires that the manufacturer continue testing it to determine whether there's a clinical benefit to the patient. If further studies can't show this type of benefit, the FDA has the power to withdraw that drug from the market.

But a year later, results were revealed from a larger, phase III clinical trial that compared Iressa with placebo in patients for whom chemotherapy was ineffective.

"Iressa was better but not statistically significant," said Bunn, who also directs the University of Colorado Cancer Center.

Given this information and because another lung cancer pill -- Tarceva -- had shown a survival benefit, the FDA decided that " it is not reasonable to start new patients on Iressa."

Since 2005, the FDA allows only those already getting Iressa prescribed or those enrolled in clinical trials that were under way at the time to continue taking Iressa.

All three lung cancer experts CNN spoke with regularly see patients and have treated them with Iressa or the other available lung cancer drugs. All said they couldn't predict whether the FDA would allow new patients to be treated with Iressa based on this and other recent studies.

Kim believes that based on this data, Iressa "is a valid treatment option for patients with pretreated non-small lung cancer."

Both Bunn and Johnson say that more choices in treatment will always benefit the patients.




 

The article can be found here and Goddess willing, even more types will have a viable slew of treatments in the coming years.
Current Location: MSC
Current Mood: [mood icon] ecstatic

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November 6th, 2008


06:05 pm
Well folks, I am going back to rarely posting things just due to the fact I am tired of things being taken out of context.  Thank you Gil for posting what you did.  All I will say anymore in the whole scheme of things is that I, unlike a majority of the people in this city, continue to respect the position and will watch and see.  I will not criticize what goes on in the light people are doing with Bush, not anywhere close.  I apologize for opening my mouth.
Current Location: College Station
Current Mood: [mood icon] annoyed

 

November 5th, 2008


01:38 pm
First let me congratulate Presidential Elect Obama. For those of you who think change will actually come though, I wish I had your naivety.

For those of you who haven't noticed, we are going into the worst recession since the Great Depression. Both he and Senator McCain admitted they both knew nothing of the economy. What we are in will not end and have us back recovering for at least a decade, Obama doesn't have some miraculous ideas to put us back where we were. We are screwed no matter what, we would still be screwed if McCain had been elected. Aye, I will admit I tend to lean more conservative and will vote red most of the time, but that may be just for the fact that I would enjoy getting a job and more of a chance to get promotions and raises. I don't like being taxed, period. Yes I admit taxes do serve a purpose that they are needed to be enforced since otherwise the government would have no money to run and it would collapse. However, taxing big business in a recession is just stupid.

If you tax big business, like oil companies for example, they have three options. They either eat the cost and take losses, lay off workers and force the remaining to work harder and longer for less pay, or they raise the prices of their good to cover the taxes making us eat the cost in the end. So folks, you may decry that you need to tax oil companies, but as long as you own a car or buy almost anything, you are dependent on the price of oil because oil is used either in or to produce almost anything.

With the recession we are entering we have a huge problem, inflation is high and unemployment is rising as well. The problem is, the only way to deal with inflation, monetary policy NOT fiscal policy is needed to sell bonds, reducing the money supply. This will unfortunately cause people to lose jobs, and life in general to suck for a few years. Inflation will be brought down and then the unemployment can be tackled by slowly inputting money into the economy by buying those bonds back, which will increase jobs and raise inflation levels slightly.

Yes, I will admit that the Federal Reserve has been under the control of Bush ever since Greenspan pissed him off and Ben Bernanke was appointed chairman of the federal reserve. Since Bernanke was a puppet, he listened and did what he was told, trying to prolong the amount of time before we went into a recession to try and keep a Republican in office. Folks though, every president tries to do this so don't start pulling this crap of Bush being the root of all evil. For those of you who haven't had basics of Macroeconomics, the fiscal policies (those that are affected by the President and Congress, versus monetary policies which is enacted by the Fed who actually can do good work) have a time delay of about 10 to 15 years. Hm, who was president 10 years ago? Oh yes, Clinton. He was praised for having government surplus and a booming economy, well folks that was Reagan's doing, not his. He may have created a little more due to taxes, but the foundation and main event didn't happen because of him.

Now folks this end my rant, it honestly felt good to just rant and rave *chuckles.* So yes, I am not happy with the way the election turned out, but unlike most people in this situation, I am not going to start insulting our future leader even if I didn't vote for him. I am not saying he is going to be a bad president, I am just saying that no change really is going to occur, that even though he may have been elected, it is his party who gets things done, not him. I just am partially annoyed at the people who insult the other candidate or the person in the office, but then when others do it to “their” candidate, it can't be tolerated.

Yes, I got a little heated on a couple points, and I apologize if people take offense, this is not my aim whatsoever. I am just expressing my views, along with some history and some economics behind it all. Feel free to comment and feedback, but understand that I will reply in kind. If you flame or try this holier than thou crap, I will fire right back. If you do intelligent discourse, I will as well.

Thank you.


Current Mood: [mood icon] refreshed

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October 30th, 2008


11:21 am - Uncertainty among other things
Well folks, seems the idea is upon me again, but I am wanting some feedback. The overall question is whether or not to start getting back into WoW at the start of Winter Break. This would include grabbing the expansion at that time, so essentially me being in game around the 15th of December.


 

There are a couple factors behind this, but I have to admit I really am divided on this. On one hand I miss all the old guildies; Ryans, Mike, Tony, Jen, Gil and the rest of you buggers. And I miss the game play, not to mention the new talents made me jealous =(. I also want to see what the raiding is going to be like due to some of the insane abilities, like the priest one to prevent someone from dying by sacrificing their spirit thingy. Also heavily interested in the artwork along with the lore that is being put in.


 

The side against going back in is simple. I'm glad that I have more time, that I'm not grinding reps or dungeons countless times for a single piece of gear. I'm happy that I have more time to spend with Jennifer, that we can do things off the fly and I'm not feeling obligated to raid every night. I won't have time except for at night seeing that I will be on campus during the day unless I steal the internet in her room when she's in class.


 

These are only the tip of the iceberg on the issue and I have to admit I would like feedback from anyone in any form. Everything will be weighed evenly, but please put it down here so I have a single place to come look at.


Current Location: Class in a church...
Current Mood: [mood icon] confused

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October 20th, 2008


01:54 pm - Second Chances
I sat in the MSC today and since the internet started becoming finicky here, I dropped out of playing with my other half and started my little bridge program.  After the first hand dealt, "No-One but You" came on and my mind jumped to Grayce and I just couldn't help myself from crying.  Even though I didn't spend much time with her, she was still a good friend that has died at an early age.  After posting on her wall on Facebook, even though I hate the bloody site, I got to thinking.  You never know when someone might disappear in some form or fashion, and you wish you had talked to them years down the road.  Due to this fact, I am opening my doors to anyone who I have put to the side throughout the years.  I am giving everyone who has annoyed me to the point of no return a second chance.  Please dont think this chance is without conditions.  If the past is drawn out to the forefront, then I will close the door again.  I will not actively seek anyone out, so if you want to talk, catch up, flirt with a taken man, whatever; then you need to poke me.  Please undestand that I am busy though, so if I don't get back to you immediately it is with reason.  Take care out there folks, and may it all turn out alright.
Current Mood: [mood icon] gloomy

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September 29th, 2008


04:25 pm
So thus begins teh first full week of relocation, I guess a summary of events since Tuesday.

We got up early, and were on the road by 5:45ish.  The driving was boring, and honestly I don't remember the topics or any of the talk that was had to get up here.  We arrived roughly at 8:30 and were in line for the majority of the day.  We got done around 1ish and checked out Jenny's room.  Luckily no roommate has shown up , but the room is much smaller than a regular dorm room, bt at least she had a safe place to fall asleep.  Afterwards we went down to my living arrangement, The Oaks.  This place is deep in the ghetto of Bryan, to use one persons quote, "Was it where you couldn't wear red on certain days?"  Yes, yes it is.  I slept for the most part that night just due to exhaustion, and got to campus on wednesday to sit in the MSC (Memorial Student Center) to be bored for 3 hours and then wandered to their computer people and got the ability to use the campus wireless.  On thursday I had my only class that week and then went down to housing and successfully got moved out of The Oaks, and into the hotel, The Plaza, which is about a 30 minute walk to the MSC from there.

Friday after fun crap of her not having class in the end, we headed to Houston.  My parents house still had no power and so we went to my grandparents house, where we got regaled in stories and air conditioning.  We hit dinner and then crashed around 9PM.  Saturday we got up early and headed to Galveston.

*sigh*

Words cannot describe what was going through my head as we approached, got onto, and eventually left the island.  If any of you have lived through a networth disaster, you know what the feelings are after going through what was your home.  We both lucked out for the fact that the dorms were OK, along with my apartment.  Just the fact of businesses and and places we recognized, torn asunder.  The debris just scattered like a child through a fit in their room.  Boats, trees, signs, and general debris strewn around and pure destruction.  I was in tears for half of the time there, and I still can't really talk about it.  I know I stick to the more stoic side of things, but this just shook me up.  We got back around 1 and unloaded everything either into the house or the garage, then did an errand around town.  from around 3 to 530 I was bored stiff and losing any sense of patience and then the power finally came back on.  After a few minutes I went outside and turned all the rest of the breakers on and got everything back up and running in the house.

Sunday we did laundry for the better part of 12 hours and got ready to come back to College Station today.  Unfortunately we are still being frustrated at Jennifer's macbook, seeing as the new update wont allow her to play Diablo 2 so one of our stress relievers is out of commission, but we are working madly to try and get it fixed.  Anywho, I've rambled on long enough, leave your comment's, ranting's, humorous tidbits after the link if you wish.  Take care folks, and good luck to those going into interviews!
Current Mood: [mood icon] contemplative

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September 24th, 2008


09:03 pm - Drama King
Well since I have been dubbed a drama king for posting what is on my mind, I am writing to remind readers (those few of you) that what goes here is my thoughts when I am posting, whether happy sad or pseudo depressional.  If one does not like my ranting and ramblings, please feel free to remove me from your friend list and/or stop reading.  I know my situation isn't that bad, but honestly when I am paying for the apartment (the amount of my rent down in Galveston) and all I get is a cot, and other people who were on campus are paying nothing and getting fully furnished rooms, I have bitching allowance.


Anyway, we head to Galveston this weekend to get hers and my stuff from our respective rooms and welcoming my folks home from vacation.  I dunno, maybe we will cook Sunday night and come down Monday morning in time for Jen's class but we shall see.  Posts will be sporadic since I only get internet access at school...even though two of my classes are purely online...
Current Location: MSC
Current Mood: [mood icon] naughty
Current Music: "I'm going slightly mad"

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September 22nd, 2008


11:07 pm - A mile a minute
Its the eve before we head down.  I have mixed feelings to say the least, along with memories and worries.  I am happy that school is continuing.  I don't like that its in CS for the rest of the semester, but I understand and will deal with it.  I am Jennifers transport and even though we each sent an email to be housed near the other, I'm not dumb enough to believe that we stand a chance at getting it.  I've got no clases on Monday or Wednesday so at least I've got time.  Campus is being opened for a day theoretically this saturday so we are planning on going down and getting her necessities and then heading to the apartment and those of us residents there will clean up and try to restore it.

I'm worried about many of my friends, two of which specifically.  One theoretically reads this, and the other just worries me due to everything going on.  I just have to hope everything will work out, and be there for them when I can.

I also got a remembrance today...

A year ago today Grace was readmitted to ICU...

I'll admit I would not have remembered it if CaringBridge update from her family would not have come today concerning their thoughts and memories.  The time I knew her was short, but it was enjoyable, and I do miss her.  I wish I would've talked with her more after it all, but I will just have to enjoy the time I knew her.  Thinking about it, I'm going to revisit the story I started when I knew her, and if I do ever finish it, will dedicate it to her.  *Chuckles softly* I know it's one hell of a stretch, ya know me ever finishing a story, but I owe her that since she was my inspiration to start it and it is one way to show my appreciation for the light she brought in.
Current Location: Grand Prairie
Current Mood: [mood icon] nostalgic

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September 21st, 2008


10:07 pm
It has been made official, the semester will be finished in College Station.  I'll admit, I am not thrilled whatsoever.  I have lucked out that the preliminary outline of my courses don't overlap and the worst thing is I have 20 minutes between 2 so I may have ot run like hell between them.  I am one of the lucky ones.  Jennifer however, is getting shafted and we only know 3 of her classes at this point.  So far 2 are scheduled at the same time so it may get intricate as we try to find a way around it, but we will make do.

The feelings running through my mind are weaving together and I guess I am just becoming calloused from it all.  Anger, annoyance, sadness, frustration and a bunch of other are just roaring around and yet I don't feel anything.  I guess it all boils down to that I have no ounce of control in this and that scares me, I hate being at someone elses whim.  I have good friends around me and with luck Ill have a good amount of my stuff come this weekend when we go down to the island, but that in itself brings a lot more problems.  Goddess, I really have hated this semester *chuckles* never thought I would say this, but maybe LA wasn't so bad.

Hopefully the transition will not be bad come Tuesday, but who knows.  It is just time to cast the dice once more and hope I cross the come line.
Current Mood: [mood icon] contemplative

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September 13th, 2008


05:48 am
As bad news is cycled around from everywhere, I sit in silence and fear.  Currently the eye-wall of Ike has started to move off Galveston, with hope that the worst is over.  My focus shift's to Houston where my parents live.  In all the time of my life we have never had damage to the house physically.  Loss of power, old flat roof turning into patio flooding, limbs doing close calls but that is it.  I ferried Jen and our friend Sam up to the Dallas/Fort Worth area so I am wincing and praying for the home that I grew up in.  My parents told me they would let me know anything that happened and I have given Jennifer my keys so that if bad news does come in, I dont do a stupid thing like driving through an eye-wall to get home.  I am scared to hear what is happening to my home in Galveston.  Our apartment is on the coast, and if the surge isnt too high then we are safe, but I am worried nonetheless.  I guess I write this as a gauge on my nerves to see when I wil crack or not.  I guess I shall sign off for now, but thoughts and prayers would be appreciated even though I know there are many things going on for others.

The song I put up is kinda dear to my heart, it has been well before this night but it does ring true.

Lost Children
Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers

Lord please watch over
All these lost children
Born to chase the hurricane
Please shine some light down
On those who wander
Filled with hunger and pain

Please raise the wind
For all those out sailing
On an ocean alone
Lord shine a light on
All these lost children
Far away from their home

Lord keep an eye on
All these lost children
Swept away in the wind
Please shine some light down
On all those travelin'
Lead them all home again



Goddess, please let us all come home again.
Current Mood: [mood icon] scared

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September 9th, 2008


11:45 pm
I dunno why, but for some odd reason I just took a downward spiral in the shower.  Well I guess it started before I went in, maybe it's just from all the shit that may be happening in the next few days.  It's been an active hurricane season, with close calls from Gustav and Ike for this semester, with Ike looking rather dire if it turns a little our way.  If the evac is given in a few hours I have to get 2 other people the hell out of here...goddes I hope Isaac can get home, I don't have travel plans to go to SA and then to DFW area.

Going into the shower I knew what would happen, the darkness would creep in.  I have been feeling my wings drooping for a bit now, just did not know what they concerned...I honestly don't know if I want this to be it.  I have to admit, I am scared of the hurricane hitting my home.  Not Houston, but my home.  If it nails the island and the apartment complex takes damage, I may take damage and damnit I just started getting into my niche.

Thankfully I do have people who will support me and hopefully hold me up in the next few days, goddess knows that it may be a long 2 years remaining here if certain events line up...why did I have to get involved into this blasted thing...*sigh*...well folks, I guess I will see you on the other side.  Ciao.

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Tim
Current Mood: [mood icon] distressed

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September 2nd, 2008


04:09 pm - Rantish
Im pissed, and yet I dont know how I feel.  I hate the fact that I am with someone that I would love to spend every moment I can with, but have to cut our time because of friends.  I guess that all it really boils down is that I am such a fucking push over.  I rarely ever step up and say that I want something, and I just try to bust my ass for everyone else.  Doesn't help that I have to spend 9 goddamn hours at some silly ass training crap on Saturday.  Yes, I am apart of the Student Government Association, however I bet you in none of that time during the retreat will they talk about Judicial Board.  SO other than shoving my thumb up my ass and trying to not fall asleep, what will I do?  I wish it was off campus, then I could just buy a bottle of something good and just drink during the whole thing.  Not under the idea of getting drunk, but just to pretty much put it in Mike's face that my time is being wasted by some annoying pissant.

I go home alone tonight, maybe that botle of Merlot will be decent....then again I guess Im frightened to drink alone...this is all for now folks, maybe I'll do a worthwhile post somewhere in here...
Current Mood: [mood icon] pissed off
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August 25th, 2008


12:55 am
Well, I am settled in down here.  Classes start tomorrow and it has been an interesting few days already.  The top of news around here is that my old roommate, Ryan Hicks, finally proposed.  The wedding date has been set well before he had bought the ring.  Seems I have two weddings now I have to go to *chuckles.*  It is approaching 6 months on my end here, and I broke down and gave her the present early...Whenever the day comes that I buy a ring, I am going to have to give it to someone and tell them not to give it to me till a certain day.  I guess I am kinda quiet due to the fact that I haven't eaten anything all day and we had a toast to the two of them and I had what probably would equal 4 glasses of wine, and I am wearyish from lack of sleep...damn anxiety.  Anyway, I will talk to you folks later, ciao for now

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